Wrong thinking...

When you get tired, you start thinking the worst things. When you're completely burned out, your mind goes completely left. When you've been burned out for over a month, HO MY GAWD!! That's my mind now and I'm finding I resort to a lot of escapism. At work, I keep a printout of the admissions decision and look at some photos from the summer and winter. You know it's bad when you can look at photos of a -10 degree day and wold take that over your current situation. I think the worse thought is when I feel like everyone has it together but me. This one is usually followed by the fear of failure. The only saving grace is that I've gotten better at not accepting the negative self-talk or shutting it down quickly.

I guess that's mind being a powerful thing in a good and bad way. Just when something good is about to happen is when you seem to go through the worst things. And that tribulation isn't always to teach you a lesson. It may be so you can encourage someone else. I don't know if that's the case. I just know I have to keep telling myself that there is light at the end of the tunnel.